….. yes!




Just a little post writing background music going on. Well this is Christmas, and what have you done (yep…. mixing songs)

But it’s a good question. What has 2018 been for you.

For me I stopped blogging weekly, so that I could concentrate that time on another project I’ve wanted to achieve. But instead I lost the momentum and discipline I had and didn’t achieve that goal. So from a writing point of view this year has been, ummm now do I say it – SLACK!!

But on some other fronts I achieved more that I thought. 2018, like every year before it has been filled with ups, downs, lefts and right. I’ve visited new counties, had fun times and a even a dose of sad. I’ve had the adventure of change and the sadness of change. It’s been a funny old year, but I’m definitely stronger, happier and more content coming out of it then when it began.

And I put that down to something very simple. Saying “yes”.

Yes, to trusting God

Yes, to following His lead

Yes, to stepping into the unknown

Yes, to pursuing new things

Yes, to learning new things

Yes, to facing old things and deciding to no longer just put up with them

A lot of the “yes” came with a big tinge of really – this? A lot of it seemed left field, and opposed to my normal decision making paradigm. But, even when my head was going “ok…. I’m confused” my heart was saying “do it, go for it, you’ve got this” and that really is why the year has been such a year of change, opportunity and adventure.

And when it all boils down, God is wanting us to say yes. I recently saw a photo of someone I know with a sign saying “she said yes to the dress”.

I imagine that God would love to see us with a similar sign daily; ‘they said yes’. Just last week after a rough couple of days, I was promptly put back in place (and strength, for that matter), when my mentor said “even if the worst things your imagining about the situation comes true- God has never let you down. He hasn’t brought you here to leave you”.

Arhhhh, that’s so good. He actually has showed Himself faithful and good time and time again in the situations that arise in life, work, ministry, family, health, finances and relationships. And as I was promptly reminded “ER, He has NEVER let you down.

Know what?

I don’t believe it’s even in His nature to let me down. Circumstances may scream something contrary but He is faithful, true and loyal. What we see in the Bible about how He loves, is now He still loves us today.

So, as we wind up the year and settle into the few days of festivities which are coming. I pray that you to will say Yes.

Yes to all He has for you. Yes to the adventures of 2019 and beyond. Yes to new days, with old thinking left at the doorway of this year. To be forgotten, as you live in all that He has for you now.

While the adventure may not always seem clear sailing, lean into the one who never will leave or forsake you. He has you, He always did and always will. You just need to say – Yes and invite Him in

Until next time, happy pondering xx

It’s the most wonderful time of the year…..

Merry Christmas! I hope whatever you are doing over the next few days brings great joy to your hearts.

It’s seems to be the time of the year when people either love Christmas or hate it. And a lot of that, I guess, has to do with what their previous experiences have been and how this year has unfolded.

Which leads me to this quote I love from Ann Voskamp ‘I want a Christmas that whispers Jesus’.

I’d tweak it to say “shouts” but that’s maybe because the world is SO noisy it’s hard to hear anything of value sometimes.

It’s so easy at this time of the year to be caught up in buying the perfect gift, cooking perfect meals and wanting perfect weather but while these things aren’t wrong in themselves; they are of lesser importance and dare I say no or little lasting value in the vastness of your decades of living.

So this year, as Christmas rolls into full swing remember that it’s a time we celebrate the birth of Jesus. The start of His journey on earth that would eventually lead to His death and resurrection. And the restoration which is available to all of us if we choose to enter into relationship with God.

So, look up from the myriad of tasks, wants and desires and instead love on someone who is doing it tough. Show interest is someone who may be difficult to connect with in a real conversation. Remember, that Christmas is better when it’s shared, and more fun when it includes others beyond our immediate network.

My favorite memories growing up included having others join us for Christmas, friends not traveling to family or tourists picking fruit as they traveled around Australia which we’d met at church. Sharing a meal and buying them pressies was fun. But laughing together, telling stories and enjoying getting to know each-other is the lasting memory.

Whatever Christmas brings you, I pray it is fun, joyful; and full of love and celebration for the birth, death and resurrection of Jesus.

Until January sometime ……Happy Pondering

Love ya XX

the plan

It’s that time of the year again. When we all talk about how quickly the year has gone, that we can’t believe it’s Christmas, that we either love, hate or are indifferent to Christmas carols. It’s like those conversations are on a loop. And often so it the next one… what is next year going to look like for you? What’s your plan. 
Argh- plan. What? I should have a plan. Haha, I often think I have a plan and it turns out I don’t even have a vague idea of what I’m wanting to achieve. So this is my challenge for the next week weeks, before Christmas and New Year roll on by and 2018 is in full swing. 

So here’s the challenge 😉 to write down three things to achieve in 2018. One crazy massive, one slightly challenging and one obtainable. 

Then from there a step by step breakdown of what needs to be done in reality to achieve them. What training is required, are resources needing to be purchased and is there room in the budget? Who are the people you need to be visited and their wisdom and no how picked. What needs to be done  in order to see the dream not only be ink on paper or a note on my phone but an actual achievement. 
And simply work at it. 
Whether it all happens or not, at least you’ve seriously thought about your goals. Who knows it may actually be easier than you think. Or more challenging. Whatever unfolds at least you’ve given 2018 the best you’ve got. 
Until next week, I’m off to ponder my 2018 xx

go slow…..

Ok- who stole June, July, August, September and October for that matter. Any clues?

Me neither, I cannot believe we are in December. It’s like chunks of time just disappeared this year. I had to laugh, last Saturday I had a young shop assistant explain to me that her Mum always said time gets faster and how that she’s 23 she can’t believe how fast it flies. I laugh because I used to think the same thing and now that I’m in the ‘Decade No. 4’ I think ….umm that was super slow in comparison. 

For those who’ve I’ve chatted with before, you’ll know I’ve mentioned the busy haze. We’ve all experienced it. And all to often it starts to suck the enjoyment out of life, as we find ourselves on a merry-go-round.

So, as I move into 2018, I’m trying to be more intentional about being in the moment. Slowing to enjoy and setting myself up for success in actually loving each day to the full. 

So, with that in mind I decided to start to read a chapter of a book each day- not more. Just one. (I’m already behind, just as well I’m only in practice mode 😉) and to allow it to sink in. Not rush to the next point or adventure, but sit and carefully read each word, mull and enjoy. 

In the few days I’ve managed to pull it off, I’ve noticed how relaxed I feel and that I feel I accomplished something. I’m not sure, but I recon the heart rate drops, the brain slows down and the joy factor increases. 
There’s so much to achieve in life, but why do it all at 1000miles a hour and not enjoy the process. So there’s more to add to the to-do list for loving life, but I’m trying to create time so I can remember it without needing a Facebook memory to remind me.
 After all, we where created with an amazing brain that has far greater potential for joy, connection, memory recall and enjoyment than any social media platform will ever will be able to provide. 

Until next time, happy Pondering 

…timely reminder 

So, I just came across this note. Actually totally unsure how my email found it considering I entered the inbox and it was from December 2016 and hiding in a folder 🤔 Another technology mystery 😉

So on this day- where I’ve not a lot to say (I know, I know – I always say that and then write a thesis) this little note seems to sum up perfectly what’s in my heart. 

Give got this

You can do this

It’s your time!

So here it is… a note from my inbox 

Who do you say I am?

Chosen by the beloved

Loved beyond measure

Forgiven for all eternity

Worthy to be called a son of God

Treasured in the Almighty’s heart

Beautiful beyond measure and loved more than the flower of the field and the bird of the air.

You are a child of God, chosen and created for a plan and purpose. 

Born into this very era, for this is your ‘now’ time. 

You are beautiful and chosen to represent me and my love to the world. A world crying to know the a love of the Father, the joy of the king.    

So rather than expand it, I’m going to let you ponder that thru, while I head to the park to celebrate a friend birthday. Hello Summer! 
Until next week, Happy Pondering xx

Remembrance Day

Well, it’s November 11th, and in Australia (and other commonwealth counties) that means it’s Remembrance Day. At 11am we have a moment of silence (usually a minute) to stop everything and remember those who died in the line of duty, during war. They sacrificing their lives for ours. 

Shrine of Remembrance- Melbourne June ‘17

Such a heavy price was paid- the lives of countless men and women. They paid the ultimate price, and sacrifice for us to live in freedom. (Always reminds me of a man who did the same for us – called Jesus. And the freedom which was availed to all who would receive. Not in our nations so much, although that too,  but our very bodies, souls and spirits).

For me, as we approach the 11am mark in just few hours, I’m reminded of other things that have taken place on this day in my world. Some I definitely don’t want to remember and others that leave me with awe and wonder at how things unfold. So no matter what’s going on today (and every day for that matter), steal that moment whether it be at 11am or 3:47pm and stop a moment. To be thankful for those that pathed a way in your world, the others that sacrificed so that you may enjoy something. And breathe. Breathe deeply in the goodness that life can hold. Yep….even in the middle of hay fever 😉, responsibilities, and chaos. 

So today, on Remembrance Day, I remember all those who sacrificed for me to have this life I live. 
I remember the freedom I have in the country I live in was brought at high cost. 

I remember, the relationship I have with Jesus was brought at high cost. 

I remember the ACL I had created from my body, was done only because a surgeon paid a high cost to learn those techniques and perfect them. 

I remember that the house I live in was brought at high cost( literally in Melbourne these days😉) and loaned to me on a month by month agreement, some might call it a rental. But I call it my home. 

I remember the little girl born on this day, who I taught in kids church,  who this week graduated from Police Academy👮(no- not the movies😂) and paid a high price to train to protect the freedom of others. 

Are they all of equal weight-no. Should I be grateful for it all- definitely! 

We generally don’t need to look to hard, to find someone, who did something, for our benefit. The world is crying out for us all to be more grateful and thankful for what we have and less entitled. There I said it (sorry, I don’t really pull those punches, as we just need to hear it straight sometimes. Trust me, I felt it connect in an ouch, as I typed it too).

So today, the challenge to both me and you, is to remember to be more thankful for what I have and who I am, than I was yesterday. 
Can I hear a ‘challenge accepted’! 

Until next time, happy Pondering 

Below are a few the other photos from my visit to Melbourne’s Shrine of Remembrance in June. 

Never Failed me yet!!!

Have you heard this song!! Have a listen ……Never Failed Me Yet!  Or as it’s actually called Do It Again (lol!)

This song has bounded around in my world for the last six months. I’ve played it and played it and played it some more. If I was to have a theme song for the year- this would be it. 
No matter what life throws at me- I have an absolutes confidence that if I stick with God, it’ll all be ok. The journey to Okay, may not be the expected pathway often. But I’ve never, I mean never, not come back to a place of life being okay and from okay to good. 
And the common denominator in each season and each victory is always Jesus. He is always there- celebrating, cheering, encouraging. 
He also there when needed showing me how to grow, change and develop in those areas of life that need to. We hate to admit it but there’s always places in our life where change can come. But the good thing is that Jesus doesn’t sit back and just point-saying you should, rather, He says let’s go, do it together. 

And that’s why He’s has never failed me. No matter what He is there. No matter what we need, He can be it. And no matter what you’ve done, He can show you a way though it. 

Ok- I’m off to listen to my theme song again.

Until next time, 

Happy Pondering xx 

Busy Haze…..

So last week I had this great thought while doing a country trip for work. You know the kind- brilliant but now you can’t remember. Yeah, it was one of them. And since it still escapes me, I’m using that as my excuse for not posting last week 😉

PhotoCred: asiaone.com

So, I’ve really not a lot to say but since I’m sitting in a hospital weighting room- I figure it’s the perfect time to write since I’ve been complaining about being busy. 
That word- Busy!

We all use it

We all complain about it

But we often don’t do anything about it.
We just keep on, keeping on. No changes to systems, processes, lifestyle, beliefs. And then we wonder why are we always so busy?
I think it’s due to a few things… hold tight…. I’m not going to pull any punches 😉😂😂

We might have a fear of missing out (FOMO) so we overcommit and sadly under deliver on our life’s to-do list in both the big and small things. 

We may be disorganized and pull others into the vortex of mess. Or others pull us into theirs. (Hate that!)

We may not know how to use the word ‘no’ and therefore say ‘yes’- when ‘no’ is the right, appropriate, and perfectly appropriate answer. 
We don’t know what we want, why we’re here and what to do; so we do a bit of everything. Thinking, the perfect ‘it’ will shine a light and bring an ‘ah ha‘ moment. So this is what I was born for.

What I’ve learnt is that in the busyness of life, we rarely find purpose. With purpose often comes purposeful activity, but busyiness is more a haze filled existence than a purposeful full life. Hope your tracking with me.

I believe God wants us to find our purpose in Him and from there live, the life He is calling us to and do the things He’s asking of us. 

For this we need to learn how to create margin around our life so that we have the space to lean into Him. To ask Him the big questions. To discover the answers big and small in a stillness. Not necessarily quite, no necessarily relaxing doing nothing, but a place of peace and calm within. While we accomplish all we need to. 

So sorry- you still need to go to work, do the dishes and the laundry. But you also need to drop out of your days and weeks some not importants so to find space for the vitals. Spending time with Him is a vital. And often is the first thing to go when we get busy. 

So I’m encouraging you and myself, to create margin, cut what need to go and implement what adding. 
Then maybe we’ll all feel less busy and more productive. 
Until next time

Happy Pondering xx

Daisy Chain

Earlier in the week I was walking up and down the street, when the little boy who lives opposite our place, who’s 5, gave me a few daisies. As I talked with his mum, Josie, Master 5 brought more and more flowers until I had a handful. 

Master 5 handful of flowers

Josie commented to me that she’d made his big sister- Miss 7 her first daisy chain on the weekend. Master 5 not wanting to miss out requested (or demanded😉) that mum make him one too.

Josie said they where amazed

Ahhh so funny, how something as simple as a daisy chain can appear to be a great wonder. 

And here is why I think it’s like that. Master 5 and Miss 7 still looks at the world with childlike wonder. And why wouldn’t they no jobs, bills or relationship dramas to deal with. But we, the old ones of this story , we get tainted with the grim of daily life. We forget our wonder, we forget to be in awe. We may have even lost all hope of looking at the world around us and seeing the good, the beautiful, the amazing and the unexplainably delightful. 

I’d like to propose that this is more because of how we choose (or default) to living each day. If we look for the negative we find it. If we look for the positive, we’ll see it. If we hunt for the wonderment we had when we here kids we’ll discover it. 
So what are you defaulting to today? Wonder and awe or despair and negativity. 
And my next big power question sequence is:

Are you happy with this?

Do you want it to change?

What you going to do about that?
And maybe the toughest when you going to start and how you going to keep yourself on track?
I’m not foolish enough to believe I can bring change to my world totally independent of help. I know, I have to make the choose and the buck stops with me, but I also know that sometimes you need to enlist a cheer squad, a coach and a water boy to keep you on the field of play. Cause as soon as you hit the bench for timeout and an breather; you going backwards. 

I don’t know about you- but my most loyal companion is God, I mean He is always there- me I can wander away, distance myself or forget to call on Him at times, not wanting to be a burden. But He is always there. And He sees it all so differently.

As it says in James- draw near to me and He’ll draw near. It not that He’s waiting for you to make the first move. Instead He is always calling to come closer, but will it grab you and demand you to. Instead He extends an invitation. So today, I encourage you accept it. Draw near to Him, let God show you the wonder that exists in Him and in the world around you. 

Until next time 

Happy Pondering xx

A year…. how has that happened!

So 12 months ago today I said, ‘before we go to the water’s edge ; I want to go take a picture of that driftwood teepee on the beach‘. 

Photo Cred: me… 1 minute after my fall

Well I never made it to the water that day. And it’s hard to fathom that 12 months has gone past since. I have found that I have a strange gratitude what this season has brought. I mean when the MRI said I’d done my LCL, ACL, Meniscus and had a bakers cyst and something wrong with my patella. Firstly, I didn’t know what it all meant; thankful for my docs mini knee to show me thou. When your whole body head plants into the sand because everything from your left knee down stays firm; while the rest of your body falls without being able to brace yourself. Then your head and neck stop first before the rest of you …kinda whipped around and you sit up, going I heard something, grabbing your knee, expecting another wave of pain to hits which never lands. Then it’s strange to say you have gratitude. But I do. So therefore I’ll happily embrace the weirdness of it all. 

Let me say this straight.

I’m not happy I was hurt. I’m thankful it wasn’t worst. 

I’m not thankful it has been a slow slow slow recovery- I’m thankful I am recovering (115 days since surgery, not that I’m counting😉 , and I’m still using walking aids BUT each day there is improvement 😀and patience which grows🤔). 

I’m not thankful it hurts my brain to have to think so determinedly about each step; I’m thankful I still have capacity to do other things while this requires so much of me. 

I’m not thankful for all the times I felt like I’ve been doing this season alone; I’m thankful for those who celebrated my mini achievements as if I’d accomplished something world changing. 

I’m not thankful for the expenses associated with getting better (especially the month off without pay-ouch!); I’m thankful that I’m not financially stressed and have peace while I walk (😉)this though. 

I’m not thankful I had my first every overnight stay in hospital since being born; I’m thankful for our public health system which meant I could have my operation and the fabulous surgeon, doctors and nurses.  

I’m not thankful I had to have surgery; I’m thankful that God conquered a fearful situation in that operating room. 

I’m not thankful for having to face some major hurdles over the last 12 months; I’m thankful God carried me over each one of them. 

The strangest things is that doing my knee was just another things in a long list of  stuff that unfolds in life (we all have ups and downs hey!). But instead of finding myself in a pit of self pity- I found myself in a cacoon on contentment; when it make ab-so-lute-ly no sense. And I don’t recall making some big declaration to face it that way. When storms raged around and within- we can laugh when we might otherwise cry when we have an unshakable peace within us. For me that’s been Jesus.
So I’d be glossing over the hard times of the last 12 mths if I didn’t say that many times I just wanted to cry, give up and wallow. If I don’t say that I had many many challenges on all fronts to content with. That at times instead of being greeted with care, concern or even compassion, I was meet with contempt, judgement, condemnation and weighty expectations; which made me feel alone; really alone. 
But you know, I’ve been saying this off and on over the last 12 mths. We get to choose how we respond. And as my mentor said to be years ago. ‘Sometimes in life, the way people treat you, shows you who you don’t want to be‘. So there it is; the manure stinks but it gives nutritional value to the soil. So for all the poop that this year has brought, thank you for fertalizing my life. You wanted to bring stench to my world, but instead I’m better because of you. What was a tripping hazard- has instead propelled me into a new season. 
So while I’m not thankful that tree tripped me; I’m thankful for the awesome photo I have to mark the start of a season which had brought many unexpected things of value into my world. 
Thank you teepee, thank you left knee, thank you JC. ( sorry for my little rhyming). 
I have seen over this last little while this verse in action romans 8:28.

While they weren’t good on there own; they have been knotted into the fabric of my world and the pattern has been enhanced because of them. 

So….Happy Anniversary Knee- we are stronger than we were 12 months ago and we are going from strength to strength. Looking forward to many adventures over the coming days, years and decades. Here’s to being whole and healed! 
Thank you Lord, for always being with me, even when I tried to do it alone over this last season. You have been my everything. So thankful to do life with you xx

Until next time …. Happy Pondering !!