What do you do when you feel like your vision is greater than your capacity? This is the precise question that has been banging around in my head over the last week. In fact it’s a question that I’ve asked in different forms before and never quite been able to answer.
You see, I believe that God loves us so much that He has an amazing plan for mine, yours, all of our lives. We have skills, talents and gifts that can be used to activate and achieve amazing things. But, what do we do when the vision we have for our live, whether in part or as a hole or even just a special project pulls us into a place where the vision is greater that the capacity we have in time, skill, head-space and knowledge… Not to even mention our hearts capacity to hold some things that threatens to expand our hearts to a point where it seems they will burst open with compassion and empathy that cannot be contained.
Well I’ve trialled a few ‘not to do’s’ and a few ‘it may help’ do’s…. but I’m hungry for the TO-DO!
I’ve tired working harder and then a little bit more, and that didn’t work.
I tried pretending that I didn’t care that I couldn’t reach the vision that was lying within my hearts goals. It backfired, I cared! And then was upset that people couldn’t see that I really did care, but was out of my depth.
What about quitting – ever try that… never seems to really work… vision has a way of grabbing you.. like extra weight does in the winter. It’s here to stay 🙂
How about complaining, moaning, groaning, whinging or being bitter that the vision is unobtainable? Has that worked for you… no, me either.
I’ve tired reading more, doing more study, asking for help….. all great, but not the complete answer.
On Sunday while chatting with someone about this very question I had an ohhhh……yeah….. never thought of that…… durrr moment of clarity. This is the chain of thought…. If vision come from God (which I know it can… because there things in my life I want to see happen that seem left field, but yet deeply resonate as part of who I am… confused? – I hope your tracking with me), and He plants these pictures in my heart and mind of what the overflow of our relationship can look like, then isn’t is fair to say that I don’t have to make them happen, I just need to co-labor with him. It’s not actually my job to run around like a mad woman (tired it – scary!!!!) working it out on my own. God has invited me to do life with Him and as such anything He places in my heart to Do – He wants to do with me.
I’m not saying that our capacity cannot be expanded, cause I know it can, is and will continue to be. What I’m saying is that God does not place the unbearable burden of vision upon the shoulders of those He loves. God does not walk behind you as a slave driver… wiping you and yelling ‘MORE, More’.
These plans, purposes and destiny He has for your life, we He wants to walk that into reality with you.. Desiring to walk side by side with you as if a friend! So for now, let’s walk on, not worried about the vision or the capacity for that matter; rather focused on the one thing that really matters. The amazing opportunity we have to have a relationship with God.
Until next week… happy pondering peeps!
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