Daisy Chain

Earlier in the week I was walking up and down the street, when the little boy who lives opposite our place, who’s 5, gave me a few daisies. As I talked with his mum, Josie, Master 5 brought more and more flowers until I had a handful. 

Master 5 handful of flowers

Josie commented to me that she’d made his big sister- Miss 7 her first daisy chain on the weekend. Master 5 not wanting to miss out requested (or demanded😉) that mum make him one too.

Josie said they where amazed

Ahhh so funny, how something as simple as a daisy chain can appear to be a great wonder. 

And here is why I think it’s like that. Master 5 and Miss 7 still looks at the world with childlike wonder. And why wouldn’t they no jobs, bills or relationship dramas to deal with. But we, the old ones of this story , we get tainted with the grim of daily life. We forget our wonder, we forget to be in awe. We may have even lost all hope of looking at the world around us and seeing the good, the beautiful, the amazing and the unexplainably delightful. 

I’d like to propose that this is more because of how we choose (or default) to living each day. If we look for the negative we find it. If we look for the positive, we’ll see it. If we hunt for the wonderment we had when we here kids we’ll discover it. 
So what are you defaulting to today? Wonder and awe or despair and negativity. 
And my next big power question sequence is:

Are you happy with this?

Do you want it to change?

What you going to do about that?
And maybe the toughest when you going to start and how you going to keep yourself on track?
I’m not foolish enough to believe I can bring change to my world totally independent of help. I know, I have to make the choose and the buck stops with me, but I also know that sometimes you need to enlist a cheer squad, a coach and a water boy to keep you on the field of play. Cause as soon as you hit the bench for timeout and an breather; you going backwards. 

I don’t know about you- but my most loyal companion is God, I mean He is always there- me I can wander away, distance myself or forget to call on Him at times, not wanting to be a burden. But He is always there. And He sees it all so differently.


As it says in James- draw near to me and He’ll draw near. It not that He’s waiting for you to make the first move. Instead He is always calling to come closer, but will it grab you and demand you to. Instead He extends an invitation. So today, I encourage you accept it. Draw near to Him, let God show you the wonder that exists in Him and in the world around you. 

Until next time 

Happy Pondering xx

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A year…. how has that happened!

So 12 months ago today I said, ‘before we go to the water’s edge ; I want to go take a picture of that driftwood teepee on the beach‘. 

Photo Cred: me… 1 minute after my fall

Well I never made it to the water that day. And it’s hard to fathom that 12 months has gone past since. I have found that I have a strange gratitude what this season has brought. I mean when the MRI said I’d done my LCL, ACL, Meniscus and had a bakers cyst and something wrong with my patella. Firstly, I didn’t know what it all meant; thankful for my docs mini knee to show me thou. When your whole body head plants into the sand because everything from your left knee down stays firm; while the rest of your body falls without being able to brace yourself. Then your head and neck stop first before the rest of you …kinda whipped around and you sit up, going I heard something, grabbing your knee, expecting another wave of pain to hits which never lands. Then it’s strange to say you have gratitude. But I do. So therefore I’ll happily embrace the weirdness of it all. 

Let me say this straight.

I’m not happy I was hurt. I’m thankful it wasn’t worst. 

I’m not thankful it has been a slow slow slow recovery- I’m thankful I am recovering (115 days since surgery, not that I’m counting😉 , and I’m still using walking aids BUT each day there is improvement 😀and patience which grows🤔). 

I’m not thankful it hurts my brain to have to think so determinedly about each step; I’m thankful I still have capacity to do other things while this requires so much of me. 

I’m not thankful for all the times I felt like I’ve been doing this season alone; I’m thankful for those who celebrated my mini achievements as if I’d accomplished something world changing. 

I’m not thankful for the expenses associated with getting better (especially the month off without pay-ouch!); I’m thankful that I’m not financially stressed and have peace while I walk (😉)this though. 

I’m not thankful I had my first every overnight stay in hospital since being born; I’m thankful for our public health system which meant I could have my operation and the fabulous surgeon, doctors and nurses.  

I’m not thankful I had to have surgery; I’m thankful that God conquered a fearful situation in that operating room. 

I’m not thankful for having to face some major hurdles over the last 12 months; I’m thankful God carried me over each one of them. 

The strangest things is that doing my knee was just another things in a long list of  stuff that unfolds in life (we all have ups and downs hey!). But instead of finding myself in a pit of self pity- I found myself in a cacoon on contentment; when it make ab-so-lute-ly no sense. And I don’t recall making some big declaration to face it that way. When storms raged around and within- we can laugh when we might otherwise cry when we have an unshakable peace within us. For me that’s been Jesus.
So I’d be glossing over the hard times of the last 12 mths if I didn’t say that many times I just wanted to cry, give up and wallow. If I don’t say that I had many many challenges on all fronts to content with. That at times instead of being greeted with care, concern or even compassion, I was meet with contempt, judgement, condemnation and weighty expectations; which made me feel alone; really alone. 
But you know, I’ve been saying this off and on over the last 12 mths. We get to choose how we respond. And as my mentor said to be years ago. ‘Sometimes in life, the way people treat you, shows you who you don’t want to be‘. So there it is; the manure stinks but it gives nutritional value to the soil. So for all the poop that this year has brought, thank you for fertalizing my life. You wanted to bring stench to my world, but instead I’m better because of you. What was a tripping hazard- has instead propelled me into a new season. 
So while I’m not thankful that tree tripped me; I’m thankful for the awesome photo I have to mark the start of a season which had brought many unexpected things of value into my world. 
Thank you teepee, thank you left knee, thank you JC. ( sorry for my little rhyming). 
I have seen over this last little while this verse in action romans 8:28.


While they weren’t good on there own; they have been knotted into the fabric of my world and the pattern has been enhanced because of them. 

So….Happy Anniversary Knee- we are stronger than we were 12 months ago and we are going from strength to strength. Looking forward to many adventures over the coming days, years and decades. Here’s to being whole and healed! 
Thank you Lord, for always being with me, even when I tried to do it alone over this last season. You have been my everything. So thankful to do life with you xx

Until next time …. Happy Pondering !!

….mountains 

I’ve not a lot to say today – shocking and unexpected I know😉. What I posted on my Facebook page in a 20 second ‘ah-huh‘ moment covers a lot of what I’ve been pondering this week. 

…..Here my moment of ‘ahhh’ …..
Never lose hope…. God is always always at work in and around your life. If you ask Him to show you what He’s doing, He’ll show you a glimpse, a sneak peak of the masterpiece He’s working. 
It was followed by this image. 


Quote Cred: inspirationalquotesmagazine.com

You’re  that masterpiece and ‘ you have been assigned this mountain to show others it can be moved‘. Don’t like the sound of it, me neither, and yet at other times I’m totally inspired by it. It all depends on the perspective that hour or minute is taking. This I know without doubt- God may not have caused this mountain and he certainly didn’t push me and cause me to tear my ACL (or any of the other things that are going on in life). That’s down to choices, situations and stupid tree branches played a part in the drawing me into my failed arty photo. But now I have this mountain, it’s assigned to me to overcome it with Him. 

 God does have the know how, wisdom, healing and endurance to get me up and over the mountain I face. For me it’s trusting my knee, learning to walk evenly on both legs again and bending and stretching it without thought, fear or concern. It’s going so slow in my mind, but then I remember I’m only 35 days into a year long recovery according to doctors, physiotherapy and my reading. Realistically, its barely to first base camp on what seems like Everest. 

I don’t know what your mountain is, but God will talk you thru each base camp to the very summit, if you’ll allow Him on the journey. He may not have caused the circumstances but He knows how you feel, respond and what you believe about them in the depths where no one else knows you. He see, He knows, He understands and He wants to walk His with you. 
All to often we call ‘pick me up and drop me on the other side of this‘, but I’m learning step by step, season by season that what you learn on the climb is important for the next mountain climb. There’s always another mountain 🤔


Photo Cred: Me (Queenstown NZ 2017)

Mountains aren’t always negative, think of the view from the top. You’ll see at the summit, what you never can from the valley. So walk on up, this mountain is for climbing and the view of victory from the top is going to be spectacular!!

Until next time

Happy Pondering 

i hope i am ……

eight-teen-questionsHey all, I’m sitting hear flicking through Facebook and wondering – why am I silenced by all I see. And when I say i’m silenced, I mean for a talker, there are no words to describe now I feel about what I see. There’s a constant barrage of hate, put downs, name throwing towards strangers online, some might call it trolling. There’s ridiculous small punishments for horrendous crimes, the glorification of prisoners coming home from overseas by the media and personal agenda creeping into business, corporate and political circles.  There’s the banter if you dare disagree with someone that you hate them or are intolerant. There’s the rights of ‘I’ before the responsibility of ‘I’.
And with all we see its easy and understandable why you can just shrug your shoulders and go – I don’t care, I don’t know what to do about it, can I even say what I think we should do about it? But maybe that’s part of the problem – we look at society which clearly needs change and apply a “i” mantra, when maybe the question is, what should ‘we’ be doing in response to what ‘we’ see.

break-my-heart-for-what-breaks-yours

Who is this we she speaks of? Well, the ‘we’ could be the people you do life with, share a house with, work with.  But -we could even draw the circle a little closer and say the ‘we’ is God and Me. What does He say about what He sees? How does His heart break for the lonely, hurting and broken.  We used to sing a song that said break my heart for what breaks yours, everything I have for your kingdoms cause...‘ .I’ve often thought, as the words have left my lips.  Do I really want to know what breaks His heart, I mean do I really what to experience the heartbreak God feels about what He sees happening in the  corners of the earth? And the answer is yes, I do want to know how He feels about it all, and with comes the free steak knives, of yes, it might hurt.  I mean, we might, be changed with compassion towards people we previously judged, or maybe we have such an indignation about the injustice we see, that we, dare ask the question of God – what do you want me to do about it?
road-sign-with-hope-and-skyThe song also utters the words, ‘everything I have for your kingdoms cause‘.  This is where the rubber hits the road.  I know that if we dare ask God, to show us His heart on the matter, that He is also going to reveal to us the action He is calling us to do in response to the matter. It could be simple, it could be small or it could be earth changing marvelous and costly. And so as I ramble my thoughts at you via my keyboard – I ask this one simple question – are you brave enough to ask God to break your heart for what breaks His, everyday and respond to it? I hope I am
Until next time, happy pondering xx