A year…. how has that happened!

So 12 months ago today I said, ‘before we go to the water’s edge ; I want to go take a picture of that driftwood teepee on the beach‘. 

Photo Cred: me… 1 minute after my fall

Well I never made it to the water that day. And it’s hard to fathom that 12 months has gone past since. I have found that I have a strange gratitude what this season has brought. I mean when the MRI said I’d done my LCL, ACL, Meniscus and had a bakers cyst and something wrong with my patella. Firstly, I didn’t know what it all meant; thankful for my docs mini knee to show me thou. When your whole body head plants into the sand because everything from your left knee down stays firm; while the rest of your body falls without being able to brace yourself. Then your head and neck stop first before the rest of you …kinda whipped around and you sit up, going I heard something, grabbing your knee, expecting another wave of pain to hits which never lands. Then it’s strange to say you have gratitude. But I do. So therefore I’ll happily embrace the weirdness of it all. 

Let me say this straight.

I’m not happy I was hurt. I’m thankful it wasn’t worst. 

I’m not thankful it has been a slow slow slow recovery- I’m thankful I am recovering (115 days since surgery, not that I’m counting😉 , and I’m still using walking aids BUT each day there is improvement 😀and patience which grows🤔). 

I’m not thankful it hurts my brain to have to think so determinedly about each step; I’m thankful I still have capacity to do other things while this requires so much of me. 

I’m not thankful for all the times I felt like I’ve been doing this season alone; I’m thankful for those who celebrated my mini achievements as if I’d accomplished something world changing. 

I’m not thankful for the expenses associated with getting better (especially the month off without pay-ouch!); I’m thankful that I’m not financially stressed and have peace while I walk (😉)this though. 

I’m not thankful I had my first every overnight stay in hospital since being born; I’m thankful for our public health system which meant I could have my operation and the fabulous surgeon, doctors and nurses.  

I’m not thankful I had to have surgery; I’m thankful that God conquered a fearful situation in that operating room. 

I’m not thankful for having to face some major hurdles over the last 12 months; I’m thankful God carried me over each one of them. 

The strangest things is that doing my knee was just another things in a long list of  stuff that unfolds in life (we all have ups and downs hey!). But instead of finding myself in a pit of self pity- I found myself in a cacoon on contentment; when it make ab-so-lute-ly no sense. And I don’t recall making some big declaration to face it that way. When storms raged around and within- we can laugh when we might otherwise cry when we have an unshakable peace within us. For me that’s been Jesus.
So I’d be glossing over the hard times of the last 12 mths if I didn’t say that many times I just wanted to cry, give up and wallow. If I don’t say that I had many many challenges on all fronts to content with. That at times instead of being greeted with care, concern or even compassion, I was meet with contempt, judgement, condemnation and weighty expectations; which made me feel alone; really alone. 
But you know, I’ve been saying this off and on over the last 12 mths. We get to choose how we respond. And as my mentor said to be years ago. ‘Sometimes in life, the way people treat you, shows you who you don’t want to be‘. So there it is; the manure stinks but it gives nutritional value to the soil. So for all the poop that this year has brought, thank you for fertalizing my life. You wanted to bring stench to my world, but instead I’m better because of you. What was a tripping hazard- has instead propelled me into a new season. 
So while I’m not thankful that tree tripped me; I’m thankful for the awesome photo I have to mark the start of a season which had brought many unexpected things of value into my world. 
Thank you teepee, thank you left knee, thank you JC. ( sorry for my little rhyming). 
I have seen over this last little while this verse in action romans 8:28.


While they weren’t good on there own; they have been knotted into the fabric of my world and the pattern has been enhanced because of them. 

So….Happy Anniversary Knee- we are stronger than we were 12 months ago and we are going from strength to strength. Looking forward to many adventures over the coming days, years and decades. Here’s to being whole and healed! 
Thank you Lord, for always being with me, even when I tried to do it alone over this last season. You have been my everything. So thankful to do life with you xx

Until next time …. Happy Pondering !!

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It’s ok … 

What a week, fortnight really! It’s gone past at the speed of light- so quick I never wrote last week. Honestly, the temptation is there to skip another week. But we all know how that goes. One turns to two and two turns to 3 years. Well, slight exaggeration but only slight😉

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I really wanted to leave you with something earth shattering, life changing, history making but I’ve got nothing. 

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That’s the truth of it really- it’s not so much the big ‘wow’ days that make your life remarkable but the way you do the day after day, through the good, bad, triumphant, and devastating. In the days that follow sleepless nights and diets blowouts. 

So I just want to say ‘you’re going great!, don’t give up and don’t allow circumstances and other people actions determine your character and your responses. After all great character is forged in the muck of life. Unfortunately, it’s in the testing that what lies beneath is revealed. 

Today- what lies beneath is a very tired 😴 girl longing to sleep through the night, walk without crutches and honor her God will her response to all that 2017 is throwing at her. 


What’s your 2017 revealing



Mine- glad you asked 😉. It’s revealing, yet again, that God is always at work, even when things don’t go to plan, when the unexpected becomes reality. That He’s faithful and good, even then things try to scream otherwise. I take it this way- if I wake up breathing again, this new day- I’ve been given had a purpose; and so do I – in it. Not only that, yesterdays stuff doesn’t have to ruin today’s. Sure there might be some stuff and junk to work through, but don’t allow yesterday to ruin your tomorrow- that’s how life is stolen. 
So breathe on …..have a fabulous day! If needed, in spite of what is going on. Cause- life’s worth living and I plan on enjoying it! Hope you do too. 

That’s all from me …. 👋🏻

There and Back….

So not much for me to say today, I’m writing this a few days early in anticipation for not feeling like writing in a few days 😀You see I had knee surgery  yesterday and today (being the day I post my blog, not the day I’m writing it 😉) I get out of hospital. I won’t go into all the details today – maybe in a few weeks when I’ve more to report – i’ll see who I can gross out🤔


But today I wanted to acknowledge   the reason I’m here.  Yep, its this photo, of the amazing driftwood pyramid on an Inverloch beach. This is taken while I’m still figuring out if I can get up after my amazing head plant backwards into the beach. Where I heard a little something which turned out to be my ACL and Meniscus saying see-ya later, we’ve got nothing more to give you, were outta here.  In fact, my sister, threw my camera at me and said ‘while your down there, take the shot, your probably at the right angle now’ 🤣

Whilst trying to capture this photo, lead to a injury; which in the natural can only be fixed with surgery.  I was praying for a miracle, a supernatural fix, where God does what only He can.  You know – I was like ‘God, here’s your time to shine and let everyone know how great you are‘.  But here’s the thing…. He doesn’t need me to tell Him what to do or what would be the correct answer to a problem. In fact, during the 9 months-ish since this happened, He has used the process and prep for surgery to deal with some rubbish that never would have been touched on except for this process.  When I was going ‘hey, God do it this way’, He was saying “no, – girl I want to see you free from this instead”.  So here I am, in time travel mode, as I write from today forward a few days, thankful for what I might not be in a few day when I’m in pain.

So, I want to leave you with this….. God may not be doing what you think He should be doing, on your timeline, schedule or in your way; BUT He is doing something! If you’ll lean in and let Him lead you, you might discover, I’m 100% sure you will discover, it was way better than your plan and solution you had in mind.  What He is doing is good…..Just like Him.

Happy Pondering xx

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Ruth: The Faithful One

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In Ruth Chapter four we see the full circle moment for Ruth, from married to widow to married again.  A lot has transpired during the 4 small chapters and there is much to dig into along the way.  We’ve actually not delved into the ocean of Ruth, any more than sticking our big toe in, but I’m hoping you’ve enjoyed that little dip into this OT book –which often gets skipped over.

One of the many things I love about this chapter is that once Ruth remarries and has a bub, that many women of the community tell Naomi (Ruth’s mother in law) how blessed she is to have Ruth in her life.  ‘For your daughter-in-law, who loves you and who is better to you than seven sons’ (Ruth 4:15).  Now in today’s thinking we would be questioning the equality of such a statement and many would be offended, thinking, ‘how dare we be compared to males or made to feel less then’.  BUT – culturally and historically this is a MASSIVE compliment which Ruth is given.  Time after time in this book – her character is brought to the forefront, praised and acknowledged.  What’s even more impressive is that at the time, she was from another land (Moab) and I’m guessing that often compliments where not bestowed on those with a different upbringing or nationality.

So as we journey out of this book – I want to encourage you that character in hardship never goes out of fashion.  It is always stylist. Ruth had every opportunity to whinge, mourn, complain and throw a tantrum as life dealt her an unfair blow.  But, instead she was seen to be a women of character – faithful, honored, virtuous.  So to can we be men and women who when hardship and trials come knocking – show our character, in not just skin deep ways but pumping thru our veins manners. Sure, we might have a moment where we get it wrong (we all do – a least I know I do and massively sometimes ) but, we get to pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and journey forward.   And really that’s how great character is formed – in the mud of life, when its easy to let things slide.

 

Until next week

Happy Pondering xx

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Ruth: Your Seen….

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Ever feel like your not seen? That what you do goes unnoticed or worse people only see the times you muck up and not the good. 

Here in the second chapter of Ruth we see Ruth question Boaz as to why she has found favour in his eyes (if you didn’t watch the amazing little video last week; I’d go check it out today https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=T5ks19z5q9w) Boaz, the land owner where she’s gleaning (picking up scraps) answers her by telling her- it’s all been ‘fully reported‘ to me. All the good stuff you’ve been doing since. Not only did he know, but people where impressed enough to give a great report on her character when asked (life goals hey!)

He then pronounced a blessing over her life in Ruth 2:12 

May the LORD repay you for what you have done. May you be richly rewarded by the LORD, the God of Israel, under whose wings you have come to take refuge.” (NIV). 

Be encouraged today, even when you think no one sees the good that you’re contributing to life- God does! And often time, so does someone else and they can be praying that God pours out His love, peace and favour in your world. 

But let’s not just be people who wait for someone to love on us, to encourage us, build us up; let’s be people to tell others what we love about them, encourage them, build them up.

Until next time 

 Happy Pondering xx

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Ruth: So it begins …..

Key Passage :Ruth 1:16-17

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I love this passage- the book really. I spend 6 months and 40000 words studying it in bible college and it taught me that every element of the bible has something for today. 
I remember when I got my first ever Bible study, it was on Ruth and I was 10; my mum was saying that you need to wait  for father to get home so he can help you. And me thinking  ‘no way I want to get this done’ ( i was super excited!) and this was part of the passage we were to study.   I first read it on that day,  and from that day till now I have loved it – it’s made me want to be a woman who is committed- beyond measure. 
I think back to the verse and think what an incredible woman- she gave up a family, her country,  friends etc to stick by her mother-in-law and the hope of a future.  Amazing sacrifice, so inspiring- Ruth what an amazing story shared in four little chapters.
Anyway, so I look at Ruth,and think I want to be that kind of person …someone who is loyal …faithful …courageous ….willing to try new things. So with that in mind I’m going to be chatting about this amazing woman’s story over the next few weeks. 
Check out this little video for an overview of the Book of Ruth- I loved it! 
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=T5ks19z5q9w
Hope you enjoy the ride
Happy Pondering xx 

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