go slow…..

Ok- who stole June, July, August, September and October for that matter. Any clues?

Me neither, I cannot believe we are in December. It’s like chunks of time just disappeared this year. I had to laugh, last Saturday I had a young shop assistant explain to me that her Mum always said time gets faster and how that she’s 23 she can’t believe how fast it flies. I laugh because I used to think the same thing and now that I’m in the ‘Decade No. 4’ I think ….umm that was super slow in comparison. 

For those who’ve I’ve chatted with before, you’ll know I’ve mentioned the busy haze. We’ve all experienced it. And all to often it starts to suck the enjoyment out of life, as we find ourselves on a merry-go-round.

So, as I move into 2018, I’m trying to be more intentional about being in the moment. Slowing to enjoy and setting myself up for success in actually loving each day to the full. 

So, with that in mind I decided to start to read a chapter of a book each day- not more. Just one. (I’m already behind, just as well I’m only in practice mode 😉) and to allow it to sink in. Not rush to the next point or adventure, but sit and carefully read each word, mull and enjoy. 

In the few days I’ve managed to pull it off, I’ve noticed how relaxed I feel and that I feel I accomplished something. I’m not sure, but I recon the heart rate drops, the brain slows down and the joy factor increases. 
There’s so much to achieve in life, but why do it all at 1000miles a hour and not enjoy the process. So there’s more to add to the to-do list for loving life, but I’m trying to create time so I can remember it without needing a Facebook memory to remind me.
 After all, we where created with an amazing brain that has far greater potential for joy, connection, memory recall and enjoyment than any social media platform will ever will be able to provide. 

Until next time, happy Pondering 



Excuse my slackness and my  illegible handwritten notes 😉but this weeks been a little crazy with ACL recovery highs and lows. As I flipped thru a notebook that lives next to my recliner, I discovered this thought, from earlier in 2017.

Funny how things mean so much when you read them and write them the first time and then, so much more at a later date when your reminded of that ah-huh moment.

I’m so glad that I have seen, do see and am confident that I will see again the goodness of God; evidenced in His word, the world and my world. I love that this is not just for me, but for you too. You can see and experience His goodness- and I pray you do as this next week unfolds into various adventures. 

Until next week- happy pondering x 

…..are you happy? 

Hey all
Another Thursday has arrived. How quick do the weeks go. This week as I’m in recovery mode, I’ve had lots of time to think. What’s been going around and around in that beautiful little brain I hear you ask, simple- the same thing I’ve been thinking about a lot over the last months.

There’s quite a back story which lead me to little moment of ‘ah huh!’, but we ain’t journeying through that decade of thought today (phew- I hear you say🙃). Rather I’ll say that the questioning eventually lead me to this- I’m not responsible for making other people happy, I’m not responsible for others making decisions which lead them to states of unhappy. I’m not even guilty of being uncaring if they ask you for advice and choose another way and end up in the valleys of unhappy. 

However what I am responsible for is asking myself the question ARE YOU HAPPY and if not, asking the follow up what are you( being me for me and you for you 😉)going to do about it.
So like most things in life there’s not a simple answer, it’s all relative to circumstances, experiences, wants, desires, beliefs etc. But here’s the challenge- if you’re not happy- you are responsible for what you do about that. Do you accept unhappiness and make others around you gloomier by your sunless perspective or do you question what’s going to create an unhappy reality and do something in response to that information. 

Please hear me here- I’m talking about happy and not joy- joy is a fruit of the Spirit and overflow from the power and love of God dwelling within your life. And no joy- no fruit is not the topic I’m hitting on. But when I think about happy- I think it’s almost an unconscious result and response to what’s going on in your life (sure they are interchangeable and even overlapping but stick with me please).

You can be joyful in difficult situations but you can’t be happy in unhappy times. You can however see what can shift in your world, to move you from unhappy to happy. But to do that you might first need to have a coffee and sit for a bit with the questions we often hate- you know the ones- that get you thinking and confronting the deep things of life. 

So boil that kettle, ask those tough questions and discover where you sit on the happy meter. Then decide what your going to do about it. 
For me- I’m going to continue to ask the question, followed by the next and sit with God about what’s on my heart to do, be and see. And that plan- it makes me happy, especially to be doing it with Him
…. better go …. a songs coming on….. a bizarre medley really 🎶
Bye 👋🏻 



This was actually from way back- slack slack, I know. I’ve actually written three blogs this week, but they’re for another day. But I thought I share this little thought with you, cause somehow it seems just as relevant as when I first penned it while studying in early 2014.


What’s needed to go to the next level? What tools will I need, what do I have, what needs refining? I’m back to serious study this year, not the certificate level of my last few adventures but my graduate diploma… I’m sort of missing competency pass or fail mode. I feel like it’s been a massive challenge to read and write at this academic level, and well understanding what I’m learning, that’s a whole other drama. (Ever known someone who uses complex language just to make you feel dumb? Well you should meet some of the authors I’m reading..they have caused some serious brain hurt 😉

Anyway, enough whinging,what I wanted to chat about was the excitement that underlies a time of expansion, sure theres plain tiredness and hurt but there is also this drive, a push to achieve all that is laid out before you. It’s exciting and exhausting wrapped into one and it causes us to laugh and smile at the huge workload because we know that it’s being used to grow us unto the next season of life. Did you know that you, yes you, can achieve so much more than you’ve ever given yourself credit for? You have this untapped potential! You are growing into an amazing person (at least I hope you’re growing and not moaning and poor me-ing), you have exponential potential, expansion is going to show your friends and family and maybe even you what you are made of! But, I know this for sure, God is never going to be surprised by the array of things you can achieve. You know it doesn’t matter now many times you’ve failed, quit or struggled with your lives dream, because God sees the you, the real you are under all the junk and expectation you heap upon yourself. You are valuable beyond compare.

Now, I know not all of you believe in the God, but I believe we get to have a relationship with Him, living and flowing not just talk about God like a possession. It is God who I credit for this expansion season, because in my doubt, concern and worry- He simply says ‘you’ve got it covered!’. Without Him, I’d be a mess. I’ve no idea what comes next,but I know God goes with me and therefore the unknown is an adventure awaiting me. He goes with you too. When life throws you a season of expansion, grab it with both fists, for you never know, the wonder you’ve always desired maybe just over the horizon.
Happy Pondering!

Are you mad at me?


are-you-mad-at-meIt’s ok to be sad, or even mad; it’s what we do with it that really counts. These emotions, if we learn how to investigate them, show us the story we are telling ourselves, our beliefs system.  When driving in the car this morning and chatting to God about being sick of waiting on a particular situation, I was like don’t scwhinge  ER (a word my brother use for my niece when she was whinging and squirming as a two year old).  So I was endeavouring not to scwhinge at God, but have a conversation.  It involved a ‘why’ question, huh I thought I was crossing over to scwhinge land, but then I heard Him as me this question about the situation.  Are you mad at me? To which I replied – no, I’m sad at you.

Yeah, I’m sad at God about it, not because I don’t see His hand in the circumstance, not because I don’t trust He is going to work it all out and not because I don’t trust him.  I’m sad at Him- because He can take it.  In fact, He wants to.  He wants to lift the sadness off, so I don’t have to carry it or feel it.  That’s pretty amazing really!

He’s more concerned with what’s missing in my world that’s making me sad, than being concerned about me feeling something. He’s not offended by my emotions.  Yes, He’s wanting me to handle them right. On the other hand He’s concerned with the why – the motive – the underlying belief which lead me (and you in that situation which keep crossing your mind as you read this  ) to that thought, action or voiced opinion.

So where did I leave the conversation in the car? I left it in amazement that I’m not angry but sad and that’s OK.  I left it with God having His arms outstretched to me and wanting me to draw near and be comforted.  I left it with the understanding that I know it’s not over and I know He’s working.  A John Piper quote I love, says ‘God is always doing 10,000 things in your life, and you may be aware of three of them’.  You know what even if He’s only doing three, I’m cool with that, cause those three will be the most important three, cause He’s is good – always!

Happy Ponderings


ImageTactical patience is the way I heard it described the other while at the movies.  It make me smirk a little.  Here is this guy being told ‘the president wants this and we want that’ from the people at home.  However, he calmly stated the situation is volatile and we are going to have to employ tactical patience.  I’m not sure if that’s just a nice way of saying back off and let me do my job or not.

But, what if we used patience in our arsenal of weapons.  What would happen if we looked at a situation and actively chose to be patience?  Not the grinding our teeth, grin and bear it kind of patience, but an actual I’m at peace in my heart in amidst the turmoil of life kind-a-patience’s.

Even as I type it I realize it sounds way simpler than it is to live.  Currently, I’m awaiting a phone interview and they are 15 minutes late, let me tell you I’m struggling to stay at peace.  I actually want the phone to ring so I can demand an answer as to why they have kept me waiting. At the moment a sense of entitlement is colliding head on with a notion that patience or long suffering is a better option.

Patience …..It’s just a little something I’ve been pondering.  Is not a new to me, however, I find myself again looking at life and thinking why are you all stressed out about what has not happened yet.  Why do you let it get to you? The only answer I have to that question is that I have unknowingly chosen to view my life from a ‘microwave perspective’ instead of a ‘slow cooker’.  All I know in the cooking world, is that you can’t rush great flavors.  So again, I have to reconcile that you can’t rush great character (something I’m aspiring to, but have not by any stretch obtained yet).  So I guess I’m left here at my keyboard going you’ve got a choice to make girl ‘settle in to the peace of God and find comfort’ or ‘ get stressed out’.  I think I’m gunna have to actively (day by day, moment by moment)  choose to trust God, cause even though from the outside looking in, something’s it may seem like He’s let me down – I know in my heart of hearts he never did. He has never left me, and he’ll never leave you.

Today I wish you all the patience and peace in the world, knowing that He’ll (Jesus) never leave you or forsake you.  Topple into Him today because in Him you’ll find the source of everything you actually NEED for life.